Des-the-Dragon

Rather than leaving this as any sort of announcement or journal, I just wanted to leave the message here quietly.

I've had an account on this website for nearly 8 years now, and it breaks my heart to say that I feel as though I can't really stay here, For the majority of the past 8 years, I've enjoyed my time here, met a lot of great people, and grew a lot as far as skill goes and I'll never forget what a welcoming and great place this really can be for a young artist. As years have gone on, my productivity has taken a massive hit, partly due to a lack of drive and due in part to an abundance of obligations and responsibilities.

For a long time, this place was sort of an escape for me. It served as a constant where I always had someone to talk to and, minor drama aside, felt relaxed. Sadly, the exact opposite is true. When something is part of your life for a while, it tends to gain association with you, you can look at something that was around during something substantial, and it will always remind you of what that is; and there in-lies a massive issue. The past few years have been genuinely traumatic in my life in a multitude of ways. With a recent diagnosis of genetic type 1 diabetes, I spiraled into a pit of depression that I can honestly say has never been rivaled in my entire life. I've been trying like hell to avoid anything that makes me think about rough times in my life, as it just makes me think "it's just never going to get better" and I'm taking measures to avoid this at any and all costs. I'm in dire need of a positive attitude adjustment, and that's just not possible with a grey cloud looming over me, even if all I do is check my inbox.

This account still steadily gains a few followers every few days, and to all of you who were expecting something out of me, I'm truly sorry.

To the ones I got to know, to the ones who I grew to care about, I'm so sorry that I couldn't just stick this out and do this anymore.